February 3, 2007
Sometimes, I feel like I’m in complete control of my faculties. My awareness of everything and everyone around me is crystal-clear; my control of what I say and do is absolute. Then, there are times like this, when I’m just fumbling along like an idiot, and my head is full of dust bunnies. I truly feel like I no longer know the difference between quality and crap…inspiration and irritation. Times like this, I feel like every positive feeling I’ve ever had was pure delusion. I feel like I ought to just crawl in a hole, block the entrance, and cut all lines of communication with the outside world. Just shut ‘er down and watch TV Land. If I’m lucky, maybe I’ll be able to grasp the sitcom plots that babble along in front of me.
